Saturday, January 7, 2012

Total Failure!

Last year, I wrote this post about my goals for 2011.  It was kind of depressing to read that post again.  There was so much optimism and excitement for the year ahead.  Well, I'm sad to say that none of those goals were completed.  Yep, I failed at every single one of them.

It's been another rough year for me.  Let me take that back, the last 6 months were rough...the first 6 were pretty good!  I met my wonderful boyfriend, starting playing Bunco and met some awesome people, went on an awesome vacation with family from Kansas that I don't see that often, and was just overall very positive.  In June, I even found a new job in cabinet design and I was over the moon.  I was really excited about my life changing for the better.

And then August happened.  The new cabinet job I had taken ended abruptly and not on very good terms.  So all of a sudden after 5 or 6 weeks of super excitedness, everything just came crashing down.  Luckily, one of our suppliers asked me to come work with one of their guys to help design and sell cabinets from a warehouse in Nashville.  I agreed, but was nervous because this was a commission based job.  I hadn't ever been paid like that before and I was worried because I do have a mortgage that has to get paid.  So, I worked there for a month or two, but the owners didn't know how to communicate with each other and it also turned out to be not such a good thing.  In the midst of all this, I am still trying to get my last paycheck from the first "bad" job.  They were bouncing checks left and right and it was pretty stressful.  Finally, after 8 weeks and discussions with the state wage and labor board it was all finished.  Not something I'd like to experience again.

So, I've pretty much been jobless since August.  It's been more than depressing and stressful and my finances are a mess.  I feel like I've slipped back into that sad, depressed person that I was when I was going through my divorce.  When will I pull myself out of this?  Some days I feel like I don't even have the effort...other days I'm applying for jobs like crazy.  I just want to be a productive member of society and have a happy little life (or mostly happy...I'll take mostly).  I feel like it should be my turn soon.

All that being said, I don't haven't really made any goals for 2012.  Just to find a job and get myself back on my feet.  I'll still work on blogging, and organizing and maybe even take that cake decorating class someday.  In the meantime, I've updated the design to bring some cheer into my life.  I have a small obsession with chairs, and I thought this was super cute.

I'll leave you with an inspiration quote I came upon on Pinterest just a few moments ago:

"What a wonderful thought it is that some of the best days of our lives haven't happend yet". - unknown

Friday, January 6, 2012

I'm Officially Old

I came to this realization yesterday...I am old.  I know you are all just dying to know what happend to make me realize this.  Well, here it goes....

I chose flat, comfortable shoes over cute heels that looked better with my outfit.

Ugh, it hurts to even think about it.  It's all downhill from here.  =)

Are these next?